These last few days have been somewhat of eye-openers for me. Not in the obvious sense. I notice myself wanting to break out of habits, and go back to old ones that I realize did me more good than I ever realized. The videos on my for-you page have been giving me signs as well, or rather, have been translating into signs from Allah.
Just earlier I came across a video talking about 'coincidences' not being the appropriate name for things that happen in that regard - every ant that walks the Earth is allowed to do so by Allah, and not a bird flies without Him knowing. If even the most miniscule of things are taken care of by Him, what more our daily affairs?
The video talked about Allah being what His servants think of Him. If we believe He has a better plan for us, it will be true. If we believe He is abandoning us, so be it. I like to remind myself and believe that Islam is a religion of manifestation, that you must first believe it to see it.
These last few months have been a bit of a hurricane for me, a storm, if you will. I've felt as if nothing has been going my way, the way that I have so carefully planned out. And admittedly it has been hard to keep faith, to see the good in all that was happening. I feared for my mental and spiritual state. I'm quite aware of how preachy this all might sound, too.
But lately I've been trying to get back on it. I've realized that these things, they are sometimes easier said than done. Very very much easier said than done. In those few months I felt my life shipwreck, I didn't even want to hear statements like that thrown about. But lately it has been easier, and it has felt better to have hope in the plans of The Divine.
It has felt like I had to atone for some grave sin, from the looks of how things were going recently. I was feeling this very intensely one day. Then on that same day a video found me, and it said "Allah does not give you things because of who you are, but rather because of His mercy" and that struck a chord. We do not achieve things primarily because of our efforts - while it is important that we put in the hustle, it is secondary. We are blessed with such things because of His mercy. Realizing this has drastically changed my views and how I ask things from Allah. It has calmed me, too.
Okay, enough of being preachy. I hope you have stayed all the way here to the end. This is just something I felt like I needed to get off of my chest. In realization of all this, I realize maybe this hurricane is not sweeping me up to kill me - when the dust settles, and I finally feel the ground beneath my feet again, I will wound up in a heaven on Earth of my kind, in some place I never dreamed of being in, but have always wanted to be in, insha Allah.
Salam, semua.
No comments:
Post a Comment